bad timings!

Well this isnt good! For the last few months Ive been slowly relapsing into my old ways... No I now its not good. Im still eating before anyone has a panic attack, but I am controlling what I eat then bingeing a few days later. I feel depressed and anxious and then I get snappy with those I love. I have even resorted to self harm again which clearly isnt a clever move. I tend ti do it on my feet so in the new year I plan on getting my feet tattooed to prevent me doing it there, and as there isnt anywhere else I can do it without people seeing it may make me realise I am better than that. Back to the eating...I tebd to only eat what I fancy then gorge on it then not eat much the next day. I always have one main meal and I di eat at work. But as I need to be alert and observant work tends to be the place I eat most at. I adore cooking and love cooking for people, I will only cooking for myself if Im cooking for soneone else. I am dreading the christmas dinners coming up, mine isnt too bad I can portion control but at my parents it tends to be put on my plate, hopefully I can put what I want on my plate and I dont have to eat as much. I am also going to cook at least one meal from the 'hairy dieters' cookbook a week and work it up to every meal. Im also going to start going back to the gym. Everyone says I dont need to lose weight just tone up so thats ny plan. I have heard exercising can help lift your mood so surely its worth a try right?  

merry f*cking christmas

 Woooooooooo my Blink 182 "ugly christmas jumper" arrived 3 weeks early from America! I love it!!! 

hat hat hat!

I made a hat! I'm very proud of it too!

Christmas dinner with Stinger

Title says it all really!

melon

turkey!!

choc orange cheesecake

peach melba torte

The Burgh Baby!

I ADORE Edinburgh it is completely safe to say that. some of my best friends live there and I always always have fun when I go. This time was no exception! Not only did we see the St Andrews fireworks, the german market, the castle, the surgeons hall museum and friends, we found a pub that had Frankensteins monster come out of a generator suspended above the dancefloor! Yes yes don't despair now! I have got photos to entertain you with! 

my brother found his real dad

Steven, me and Darren my best boys

Cait, Carmen and moi

cowl

This is the cowl I have made for my mam which are in colours she wears. I'm still shocked at the price of the wool mind! It had only taken me 2hours to knit aswel!

The Burgh!

Once again I have had an amazing weekend away with Steven in Edinburgh for the german christmas market. I got to see 2 of my best friends that live there. Darren and Cait.
I spent ages saving for this weekend as a late birthday present for Steven. A fair few of us went, my brother and his girlfriend, josh, gary and his girlfriend yvonne. 
I was so glad we got to see the fireworks from the castle as they celebrated St Andrews day. I had been bigging the fireworks up from when I saw them last. They were all the big BANG ones which Steven loves.
We wandered the market, had a hot chocolate in a novelty mug, I went ob the merry go round and then to a pub. On the saturday we went to the castle as bobs and josh hadnt been before. We then went to Frankensteins pub for food before doing some shopping then back to the hotel to get ready for our night out. We had an amazing night drinking cocktails and watching Frankenstein come out via a generator and lowered down on a slab he sat up then twitched then laid down again. Believe me when I say it was OUTSTANDING!
We went round a couple of museums too.
I love Scotland and go every year and to go with friends and family made it even better.

Tattooooooooos

Here's the photo of my diamonds that are for my great nana, nanna and my mam.

lace fingerless gloves

These are the gloves I was on about in my previous post. There at present only one but hey they should match when they are done! Also if they arent perfect I dont really care! It was my first attempt and my mother in law will love them regardless!

still alive!

Well I'm still here! I've been busy knitting for christmas! So far I've done a purple headband like my red one. I've also learnt how to do lace and use double pointed needles on which I have done one lace fingerless glove which I am doing the second but I got fairly p*ssed off at them so I am currently, knitting a cable cowl on circular needles. Another first! I made a cowl with elongated seed stitch in wool that cost me £17 quid! Very expensive but its hand dyed so unique.

I also got three diamonds tattooed on my arm today for my great nana, my nanna and my mam. 

Of course I will upload photos tomorrow as I'm on my phone!

Christmas presents

I made some layered hot chocolate jars for people the other day. The larger are for couples and the smaller for 1 person. Each have cocoa powder, marshmallows, and a mix of dark, milk and white choc chips. Although my brother went and ruin my well laid plans and got back with his girlfriend from 4 years ago! damn him, love them both though.

Husbands growing old day

On Saturday (3/11) It was the most amazing man in my life's birthday he's the grand old age of 24! I didn't take many photos but this is how the day went.
First as soon as it hit midnight I jumped him shouting happy birthday here's your presents lol. We randomly ended up in Frankie and Benny's and were there for what felt like an eternity. They took forever with drinks and food. The only good thing was a waitress had asked if it was a special occasion since there was a big group of us and I said oh it was my husbands birthday, so they brought him a free sundae with a candle and balloons lol. He then went to see silent hill 2 with his brother and his girlfriend and my brother and his girlfriend. I refused to go. Silent hill scares me lol.

His non alcoholic beverage! it had passion fruit I had to buy him it!

His birthday sundae

My fave person looking happy with his balloons

I remember halloween

So yeah my cosplay outfit arrived and I was super stoked! Shame when I got wasted I lost some of it! Just your average rock and roll night eh?! Well I have a few photos to show you all. It was one of my besties leaving do *sniff* and she dressed as the joker from batman. A lot of the guys got their make up done by our resident famous  special effects guy Hoj - James Hodgson. He worked on the award winning local film 'Inbred' check it out.

Me as lightning from FFXIII

Luke as a fox

Joker Jeki

Emzio, Boo and Penny

My sister and brother in law, yes Ted is Rorschach

Me and Hoppsy, thats Hojs handiwork

my favourite turned 17

So kidda aka Jason turned 17 yesterday. Hes the favourite cos hes the youngest. I made him a cake it didnt turn out how I wanted it to so Steven cut it into a guitar shape. The creative devil he is. I loaded the cake with re lighting candles muhahah!

Adventures with fat boi

Fat Boi and I do have some random days...heres some photos to prove it!

Chicken and stuffing mmm...not with salad cream, mint sauce and english mustard

drinking the salad cream

He bent the fork for no reason

looking good in a gown

Fat boi ruski

Im a lady

I like sparkles yes i do

Gonna try something new

Well Im loving a lot of the style parts of people blogs at the moment. This has got me thinking I wanna show you my style! Not that I have much of it and I will only show you on days that I like how I look :P But first I'm going to share with you a dear friend Jeki's fashion blog . Shes gone through every style (nearly) and knows enough on what suits her by doing so! Her blog is on fashion for REAL women yep none of those size 0 bimbos! So if your interested read here!

So mine is going to be a double whammy of yesterdays in the pink and todays in the blue.

kinda small but you get the jist and I will get better!

not the best photo quality due to being taken really early under the wrong light!!

forgetful

Just realised that I never uploaded a picture of the booties for my friends babies by themselves! I even tried to be artsy which I'm not very good at!!

finally gotsa a knitting again!

Ive been knitting again hurrah!

I decided to knit a headband. Im going to make some more for people for christmas and with thinner wool. But in different colours. It took me only a few hours to make too. 

   

I prefer it with the button to the front I think and I definitely need to use thinner wool!